jokesrfunnee

laa dee daw

2008-07-22T20:34:14Z

work is gay. i need to find a better job, but its hard cuz at sam's i make 9 an hour (10 on sundays) and they close at 8:30 (6 on sundays). but its so boring, and i want weekends off!

I'm glad its still summer though :] i still have like five more weeks before school starts, and i'm going to colorado soon to see Lane's hometown.

I just really miss my family and feel like i have absolutely no friends :[
I might move home when my lease is up in June depending on how other things in my life are going... boyfriend, friends, school, job..

On another note, i'm pretty pissed that the lady at walmart asked to see my ID for buying a PG13 movie. you aparently have to be 17 which is helllllla gay, and it was even more retarded that i, being 19 got carded haha. ohhhh well.

my dad is coming up to flag tomorrow :]

lets seeeee

2008-03-10T19:55:38Z

A week from tomorrow Lane and I will be at my house in Phoenix alllll by ourselves : ] Well, with Jess and her boy but that will be it. Its going to be a spectacular spring break! Now, I just have to make it through the next 96 hours or so.
I've got somewhat of a to-do list...
1.Print out pictures for photography
2.Critical Issue paragraph for WST
3.Do Soc 'exam' + reading
4.Finish CJ essay
5.Read as much of novel for WST as I can

Atleast I was productive and got some stuff done over the weekend!

jokesrfunnee @ 2008-02-17T17:16:00

2008-02-18T00:24:09Z

I went out again to a party with Lane last night :]
But today when I woke up in his room I didn't feel good at all so he walked me back to my room at like 11. I just got out of bed like 15 mins ago, meaning I've been in bed for the past 6 hours. At about 1:00 I woke up and my head hurt so bad. I had to call my momma cuz I was all alone in my room feeling so shitty. Then I started shivering even though I was under 3 blankets which meant I was getting a fever. I couldn't fall back asleep because everytime I closed my eyes I got really dizzy. So I moaned and rolled around for like an hour then finally fell back asleep. Then Lane came over close to 3:00 and had chicken noodle soup, a naked juice, and halls cough drops for me. He made th soup for me but I could only eat like six bites. I feel a little better now cuz I took ibuprofen for my fever because thats the only medicine I have. Buuuut I wuvv my boyfriend <3

Yep thats my girlfriend

2008-02-16T19:18:20Z

Last night was truly one of the best nights. Lane came over and we got Gateway pizza for dinner and ate it in his room, with his new roommate. I know thats not particularily exciting but his last roommate was a dick and made Lane feel like a pussy for having a girlfriend. Lane's changing and its really nice. So then after we ate I came back to my room to get ready and he went to go figure out what was going on with his new frat's party. At like 9:25 he called me and said he was gonna pick me up in like 20 mins. So he did, and we get to this party and its all dudes which is what I expected but also not a problem for me. I'd rather be at a party with all guys than a lot of girls cuz eww girls suck. But anyways Lane kept introducing me as his girlfriend to all of his new friends. It felt really nice to be introduced like that instead of before when people didn't even know I existed. Lane and I played beer pong together and he kept kissing me in public which he never did before. He's finally gotten over trying to impress his dickweed friends and just being himself doing whatever he wants to do. He paid so much attention to me last night even though there were sluts dancing around us and eyeing him up. He saw no one but me. I love this boy so much. And today he gets to meet my parents and my brother. He met my sister like two weekends ago. I'm really excited because my family is really important to me, as well as Lane so they just have to meet. And next weekend is Dallas' wedding so we are going down to Phoenix for that. I really want to leave on Friday so he can come to my house and maybe meet some of my PHX friends. But, I don't know. Regardless it's going to be fun.

jokesrfunnee @ 2008-02-08T10:55:00

2008-02-08T17:56:25Z

hahah, a couple nights ago i had a dream about jonathan, who i used to be friends with in Vegas.
Then two nights ago i had a dream about this guy Justin that I worked with.
And last night I had a dream about Ian, who i also worked with.

hmmm.

jokesrfunnee @ 2008-02-05T23:02:00

2008-02-06T06:02:56Z

"its hard to say
what it is i see in you
wonder if
i'll always be with you
words can't say it
i can't do
enough to prove
its all for you"

ooh ooh baby

2008-01-24T01:39:11Z

today my pops came up for a visit. it's strange that just about six months ago I got annoyed by his company, and now it actually feels nice to spend a day with him. We looked at a few condos and apartments and I'm starting to get really excited. I actually should really get a job a.sap though! Its gonna be such a nice change from these prison-like dorm rooms. Plus, I'll be living with someone that i actually want to live with. blah blah blah, nothing else worth writing has really happened lately. besides the fact that I'm so in love with my boyfriend, and its .. odd? Haha, I've had really only one relationship before this, but it wasn't like this one. It was a high school puppy love story, and this one is way better. I'm just so used to being single, and not being a part of that crowd anymore feels different. but such a good different. My friend Dallas is getting married on February 23rd and Lane is coming to the wedding with me. We got a hotel room where the ceremony is being held so I think it'll be a pretty damn good time : ]

<3

2007-11-25T01:24:58Z

jokesrfunnee @ 2007-07-10T19:46:00

2007-07-11T02:45:52Z

and thus continues the cycle of me liking a guy i can't have.
fuuuuuuuck me.

jokesrfunnee @ 2007-03-24T13:29:00

2007-03-24T20:37:13Z

last night was my 18th birthday party.
it was extremely fun, at the beginning
ashley ken and kayle came first and ashley bought me a hookah for my birthday!!
my very own, i was very excited about that : ]
then ashley murray came and she bough me jager, which i will be drinking soon with somebody haha.
then everyone else started getting there..
jake, troy, bri, ana, natalie, zach, melissa and her friend, nichole, damien, andrew, gage, gunther, molly, foley, diane, kyle, obrian, sean, josh, jesse, john, mitch, chloe, and jared.
it was a nice group of people, and there only turned out to be two girls that i didnt even know, nor wanted at my party. haha. oh well.
we had jello shots, rum cake, long island iced tea, bahama mama, mai tais, and beeeeer.
i played a couple games of beer pong, but i think i lost each time.
the jello shots were amazingly good. i had tons of those.
then my father got upset.
he said "people are throwing up left and right"
and he said that anyone who wasnt staying over needed to leave
so i apparently told him to "go back into his room and i will deal with everything"
then he told me that i made a wrong decision and that was not the right thing to say
and got really pisssed.
so i started crying.
everyone was really nice though, hugging me and telling me to cheer up.
that it was my party and it was fun and everything was fine.
it turned out only TWO people were throwing up and they were in the bathroom.
whateverrr.
my mom was chill about everything though. i wish she was the only one there.
she drank a mai tai and took some jello shots and even tried the hookah.
the night was a lot a lot of fun.
plus, i got birthday kisses from everyone : ]

jokesrfunnee @ 2007-03-08T22:00:00

2007-03-09T05:00:15Z

i'm so disappointed in myself.
not only myself actually, most people around me too.
i keep getting myself into the same situations
and things just seem to be going around and around for me
like a merry-go-round. except, not so merry.
and i feel like i keep missing the exit
so i don't have a chance to make things better.

hmph

2007-01-31T03:23:59Z

If I were to rate my life on a fun scale of 1 to 10 right now it would have to be a 2. TWO. I'm so tired of the same routine. wake up. shower. get ready. mindlessly go through school. come home. sit around. [work]. go to bed. one of the reasons for this is my lack of motivation. its not that I dont have people to call, its just that I dont. its like, i'm living all for the furure right now and dealing with the present as if its a pain in my ass. like just hoping that in the future i'll have loads of friends and an endless amount of things to do, but it doesnt work like that. i mean, i am starting over in august, but what am i supposed to do until then? i'll be 18 soon, so i think that will give me some much needed freedom and expand my social life a bit. the sad thing is, i feel sort of content. its my decision not to call anyone on a saturday night and instead come home and watch a rented movie. like that one quote 'you cant be happy with anyone else until you are truely happy with yourself' or something like that. im becoming more and more happy with myself every week. all im saying is, you could blindfold me and i would get through my day no problem.

p.s. ive been single for way too long. everyone around me is dating somebody. and every new guy i meet already has a girlfriend. i just want to find that one guy that loves everything about me and vice versa. with a boyfriend, its sort of like, it wont even matter what were doing, as long as were together. and its not like we have to be together 24/7. i dunno. im just lonely. but i dont really have any love interests. i mean theres a couple guys that i'm like hmm i think i like them. but then i wonder if its just because ive been single for so long i just want to like someboyd for the simple reason of liking sombody.

jokesrfunnee @ 2006-12-26T20:12:00

2006-12-27T03:12:27Z

christmas was goood
i got
JT tickets, a curling iron, pjs, mac makeup, boots, wedges, car cleaning stuff, joshua radin and keane cd, ice age 2, an ipod case, two sweaters, a necklace, a bag, a few gift certificates. pretty much everything that was on my list.

now this week its work work work work then new years!
then i'm going to colorado to play in the snow!
then jessica is coming out & we'll go to the JT show!

i'm probably gonna be going to NAU in the fall. Bri is up there, Marilyn will be going there, Diane and alyssa will be going up there and my friend melissa might be. ANNNNND i'm excited to meet new people.
but thats still kinda far off...

jokesrfunnee @ 2006-12-09T17:38:00

2006-12-10T00:38:22Z

my father
isn't much of a father anymore.
i mean, i only see him for half the month, or even less.
and when he is home he's constantly on his black berry
he's easily agrivated, and argues with us all the time, and gets pissed off so fast.
the only parenting he really does is setting my curfew.
he doesnt know anything thats going on in my life.
he tries to be 'nice' or a 'good dad' by giving me money when I go out.
whatever.

jokesrfunnee @ 2006-11-16T19:12:00

2006-11-17T02:12:29Z

mmm
why do things always have to fall apart?
I was going good for like three weeks
and today it all came to a hault.

I'm scared.
I'm scared of college.
I'm scared of never finding that one person i belong with.
I've found that I'm very scared of people in general.

I can only trust three people really: Jessica, Nichole and Jake.
Every time I meet someone new and talk to them I seem to think its all bullshit coming out of their mouths.
WTF? that's fucked up huh?

But the other day I was driving home from somewhere and I decided I'm not very happy with the way things are turning out here. Like, if i stay here, i won't have a happy life.
If I go to ASU I probably won't make many new friends and I'll just be going through the same bullshit with the same people.
Not that its all that bad, it's just I dont see things turning out great if i go to ASU.

But on the other hand I'm terrified of leaving and going to NAU and U of A since i dont really do well around new people. I mean, I've heard its easier to make friends in college cuz people are more grown up and what not but i'm shy as hell.

I think I'm gonna go to U of A or NAU though.
for realzzzz.

mmmmmm

2006-11-04T19:52:14Z

Yesterday and Thursday were really great days.
I spent them both pretty much with Troy.
Kim and I hung out again for the first time in like five months.
We had a lot of fun : ]
Last night was just too crazy of a night.
Today I go back to work for the first time in almost a month.
gahh I really loved having all this free time,
but my bank account is slowly diminishing haha
and I need money if I'm going to get an apartment or whatevvver.
Sunday I'm going down to Tuscon with my mom and on
Monday we're doing a U of A campus tour thingy.
and I can't believe it's only 7 months of school then
GRADUATION : ]]

gah

2006-10-26T19:40:49Z

so i'm sitting here do absolutely nothing besides surfing myspace and drinking tangerine lime flavored water. and i start getting deep into though ah.
myspace is horrible. so is lj, but not in the way that myspace is horrible. i mean i was looking at peoples profiles reading their 'about me' sections and it was like wtf? why do we feel the need to share so many pointless things? then theres the friends space. "like omg im gonna put in a top 24 so i look like i have loads of friends" thats what it always reminds me of. and then the countdowns? okay, well i have one so i'm being a hypocrite, but do people really care about others countdowns? no. like besides a few older males who the fuck cares when i turn 18? now, peoples pictures. its so funny how tom keeps adding more spaces to how many pictures we can hold as to show how vain every single person is. i'm s culprit, i have 10 pitures or so. then people comment them, and everyone says "ah this is so cute" "i love this" "my favorite" some people have a lot of favorites. baha. alright, my main point is that people are concieded. we all have this page just about ourselves. its so funny but its too complex.
ha.

COLD PIZZA.

2006-10-21T23:15:02Z

i was just reading a few things i wrote about a year ago in this lj. haha things were really different for me back then. but thats not why i decided to update..

well, there was no school for this past week, and it definately wasnt one of my better breaks, that is, until last night, but i'll get to that later.
having mono definately has its drawbacks, but it also reminds me of a time a little less than a year ago. the main drawback is that ive spent most of my break sitting at home, because i'm just so tired all the time i cant go out. a good thing is though, i havent worked in around ten days. its sort of a nice freedom, not having to miss out on anything because of work, but can really make my life that much more boring.

so break basically consisted of sleeping in, employee of the month, man of the year, the departed, spending some time at ashleys one night, and hanging out with eric one day. BUT, last night Joey called me and asked if i could go to his apartment because he was having a party. well let me tell you all, Joey is THE MOST GORGEOUS BOY EVERR. including celebrities and what not. out of all the men ive ever seen, hes the best looking. basically, hes number one on my fantasy list. hahaha. well, last night i tried drinking a little, but the beer was only making me sick, because with mono you arent really supposed to drink and what not, but i missed my beer so i sucked it up and had a few. we had a talk show at Joeys, and people were having a rap off, oh and a cop came haha. Nichole and i had to hide in the bathroom. well, in conclusion, Joey ended up kissing me. Thats right ladies and gents, I've kissed the best looking guy in the world. hahah. that was definately the highlight of my break : ]

writing through the tears.

2006-09-29T20:35:28Z

i dont even know what to do with myself anymore.
i'm completely withdrawn from everybody.
i dont go out much anymore, basically spend my time at home work or school.
i can't even deal with school anymore. i hate 75% of the people there.
work is sometimes the best to be because its not home.
i havent smoked in over two weeks.
and i want to again but at the same time i dont. it never was a huge habbit for me, just once a week or so. everybody at work does and they talk about getting high and i just want it so bad again.
then today troy and jake were asking me if i wanted to hang out
i havent hung out with jake in over two weeks, it might have been the last time i smoked too i dont remember exactly. but when we hang out we NEVER do anything except drive around and i always have to pay for everything so i was hesitant to say yes. one of his texts asked me why its so hard to hang out now when before it only took like three texts and now he has to write and essay. and i said i dont know.. and he said "well i'm done wasting your time"
and you know what, in all honesty all hes ever done was waste my time. i've done so much for him and the only thing hes ever done for me was disappoint me or hurt me. a while back i decided that i was done with him, but that didnt work. him and i became really close friends but i've always known in the back of my mind that i need him out of my life. i think he might be. and god damn it hurts.
i dont know what im doing anymore. i can't keep myself together. i dont know.

jokesrfunnee @ 2006-09-29T13:36:00

2006-09-29T20:35:16Z

jokesrfunnee @ 2006-09-18T20:04:00

2006-09-19T03:02:54Z

mm life is sort of disappointing as of right now.
actually, its sort of like that Dane Cook thing, where he talks about love.
He says something about "it seems like when you dont have love everybody around you is falling in love" and then he compares it to a party .. like everyone got invited except for you.
jessica has nick
nichole has mitch
ashton has reggie
ashlee has emery
jake has taylor
andrew has ashley
I dont have anybody. And its really starting to hurt. I'm beginning to get really lonely. I spend so much time alone, watching movies or whatever. I'm hating it. I want somebody to call my booo.

jokesrfunnee @ 2006-09-04T19:48:00

2006-09-05T02:53:45Z

niice weekend.
: )
i started it off pretty slow by going home after work on friday and watching Pulp Fiction.
i enjoyed it.
Saturday i worked until four and i had Jared buy me a bottle of smirnoff.
nichole and i went over to mitch's and started drinking it, but mitch was still at work and it was only like 7ish and it was kinda boring by ourselves. so we took only a couple shots and watched the vmas for a little. then we picked up Mike and had him buy us an 18 pack of cooors<3. then we went over to travis's for like a half hour or so. after that it was still early like only 9 so we ordered a damn good pizza and picked it up. we got back to the house around 9:40 and only had to wait a little while for mitch to come home. then me and mitch took a few shots and i called andrew. and he said he would come over after work so at like 11:15 he came over. we played the lamest game of beer pong because we only had 7 cups total. haha. um then we all drank a little more and passed out around 2.

sunday i enjoyed four hours of crossing jordan in my empty house. then my parents came home at around 7 and we ate dinner then i went over to mitch's again. mm there were boys, kings cup, auctioneer, beer pong and beer bongs. i just had beer after beer after beer after beer. i made a new friend emily and i would just walk around the house pointing to people and saying their names cuz i wanted to remember everyone. i remember i kept calling this boy marshall, mitchell. every single time. haha. oh then i got pissed at a guy who said me and nichole were probably 25 together so i said "shut the fuck up you fucking asshole" and then nichole brought me into a room before that went any further. lets just say five 30 packs and three bottles of liquor later, we all passed out or left at around 3:30.

today i picked up jake at like 230ish and we drove around for a little while before i got hungry so we ate at in and out. then we saw accepted. it was an alright movie. it had funny moments. then i took him home, and now im home. lovely weekend.

jokesrfunnee @ 2006-08-28T12:49:00

2006-08-28T19:45:19Z

alright FUCK THIS.
i need a boyfriend.

jokesrfunnee @ 2006-08-17T22:21:00

2006-08-18T05:34:37Z

i'm trying this new thing, called ONLY looking at the good things in life and basically just accepting and moving on from the bad things that happen. sort of over looking them or pretending they are there. more like turning them into good things or atleast taking a teeny good thing from each bad thing, turning it around.
1. today i got a raise at my job : ) finally. now i get paid $7 an hour and $8 while im training. and i was about to quit two weeks ago. hahah. glad i didnt : ). like yea, im bored with it but its like what the hell else am i going to do with my time hahah.
2. school. i'm content with it. i go everyday only until 10:43. thats three classes. its just nice to not be there unti 2:27 every day. i only like my 3rd hour class but i'll get by in the first two.
3. i'm single. and even though id much rather prefer to be with a guy and just have that special someone, im not really complaining (yet). for starters, there really arent any guys that have caught my eye right now. like i can sort of crush on them but then if i picture myself with them its just weird. so i'm not rushing anything, or getting upset that i dont have a boyfriend, i'm just having fun. finding out about myself and stuff. but id sure love to get asked to homecoming ; )
4. eh. thats all i can think of right now
#)*$KLJSLKDJF.<3

so long sweet summer

2006-08-09T04:12:34Z

school tomorrow.
i'm slightly terrified.
i dont even know why because i have friends to meet up with. and people to talk to. and this is my fourth year going there. i think its because of all the responsibilty it comes with this year. my sister will be a freshman. i have to help her and make her feel safe and teach her. oh god how am i supposed to teach her? i've picked up a lot of bad habbits in high school and i'll be such a hypocrite if i tell her a lot of things. if i tell her not to worry about parties and drinking. not to succumb to the pressures of smoking and drugs. to insist that its best she doesnt worry about relationships and just focuses on keeping her friends. dont create drama. dont fall into drama filled situations. dont EVER talk shit about anybody because it WILL come back at you. make friends. keep them. stick with them forever. because they are the ones you need. do your homework, be on time to classes, study and do well in them. pass them. talk to your counselor. find something that you love to do and are good at. dont follow every trend, figure out who YOU are and go with it. DONT be a copy of everybody else. thats what i want to say. basically, find out who you are, dont do things just because they make others happy or its the cool thing to do. make choices based on soley yourself. because if you are happy with everything then you will be happy with your life, and for the most part, thats all that matters.